Prison Break
On July 29, 2005 my gut wrenched as I called him, No answer. Yet I thought you went to bed early last night? I know you are a morning person it is almost 9 am. Hmm, I trust my gut lets see how far this goes.
So you finally decide to call me at 10:30. “I just left your house.” That was all I could think to say to see if my gut was right. Sure enough the voicemail was a reflection of a man that is guilty. The less they know what you know the more power you have.
Desperation: Call my best friend. “she is mad cause I didn’t get home until the morning.” Ohhhh.. (enlightenment) You were out all night. Well lets ignore him a bit longer. “How does she know I was out all night? Was she staked outside my apartment?” (Confirmation). No I will not call you. No I have nothing to say to you. Deposit what you owe me in the bank and mail me my stuff. Today is the day a year ago that I found out about the OTHER girl. Bad day for you, my love. GOOD BYE.
It started out as anger to not answer my phone. Yet not a single tear has left my eye. Now I just don’t feel like talking about it. I gave you 2 years of my life. I treated you good. I did all I could for you. All I ask is that you treat me right and don’t betray me again. OH WELL, so much for promises.
The funny thing is, I am not really all that upset. I am not depressed I am not sad. I feel Released. No more worrying. No more stress. No more insane thoughts. Freedom. As much as I love you, I know I can’t change you nor would I want to. But I can change how I am treated. I will not allow myself to be treated like this. If we are meant to be you will be back as a man that will value a good woman and would do anything not to hurt her.
So you finally decide to call me at 10:30. “I just left your house.” That was all I could think to say to see if my gut was right. Sure enough the voicemail was a reflection of a man that is guilty. The less they know what you know the more power you have.
Desperation: Call my best friend. “she is mad cause I didn’t get home until the morning.” Ohhhh.. (enlightenment) You were out all night. Well lets ignore him a bit longer. “How does she know I was out all night? Was she staked outside my apartment?” (Confirmation). No I will not call you. No I have nothing to say to you. Deposit what you owe me in the bank and mail me my stuff. Today is the day a year ago that I found out about the OTHER girl. Bad day for you, my love. GOOD BYE.
It started out as anger to not answer my phone. Yet not a single tear has left my eye. Now I just don’t feel like talking about it. I gave you 2 years of my life. I treated you good. I did all I could for you. All I ask is that you treat me right and don’t betray me again. OH WELL, so much for promises.
The funny thing is, I am not really all that upset. I am not depressed I am not sad. I feel Released. No more worrying. No more stress. No more insane thoughts. Freedom. As much as I love you, I know I can’t change you nor would I want to. But I can change how I am treated. I will not allow myself to be treated like this. If we are meant to be you will be back as a man that will value a good woman and would do anything not to hurt her.
posted by Unknown at 11:48 AM
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But you knew this would happen, right? I know I did.
Listen to Ashanti's "Rain on Me."
Have some ice cream.
*Sigh*
Who's going to make him pay me back now?
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